The Meaning of Emptiness
So… I titled my page ” The Meaning of Emptinss “… And I sure as hell know the meaning of that. Janurary 31 2008 I had a miscarriage and it was the most horrible day of of my life. It has taken everthing away from me. I am no longer happy anymore and I am not over exagerating « probably spelt that wrong.. any who So while ago I find out that my ex who had knocked me up, appearantly by mistake because he broke up with me 2weeks after the miscarraige, is dating no wait engaged with someone who has a song already. I would have never thought in a million years that I would be the one to be treated like this…by him. I miss my son very deeply and I just wish I could have saw him at least once. Just to see if he had my eyes or smile..something of me. Sometimes I feel like a complete baby and i’ve been told to ” get over it “. But I can’t. I just can’t get over the fact that he’s gone and that’s it..he’s never coming back. I will never get to hold my son..or tell him in person how much I love him when I look into his eyes. :[ It hurts so bad but I feel like I can’t speak to anyone about this. No one understands. There is just this emptiness inside me that I can not get over. I’m not the only one who sees it either. …
on other news next week I will be attending the SKSK concert…March 2nd It should be fun to get out and get some air with Azara, my best friend. 
